| My Big Brother Owns You. |
[01 Dec 2005|01:48am] |
PumpkinPieNazi: NO PIE FOR YOU!
Lookie its Molly: you freak.
Lookie its Molly: lololol
PumpkinPieNazi: lol
So this boy lead me on. And that's cool. Cause I'm stronger than I was yesterday because of it.
I have the best friends in the world. <3
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[01 Dec 2005|01:48am] |
I can't stop crying right now.
I just. I need to go back to Charlotte for a couple months. I love you all so much. I wouldn't have been able to get through a lot with out a lot of you. But I'm sick of caring so much. I need to go back where I truly know people. Where I know I have...I have something. Someone. Everything gets so crazy when you're growing up. I can't believe that I'm graduating next year. Next fucking year. Next year I start the rest of my life. Next year I am on my own. Next year I'm not babied anymore. I'm not ready to grow up. Oh my fucking god. I'm thinking too much. I need to go.
"And when I wake up you'll be here....and it will be the way it was the...way it was.."
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[01 Jan 2005|01:48am] |
Life is amazing sometimes.
You realize how much you really care.
And how much you are really cared about.
Happy New Year.
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[01 Jan 2005|01:48am] |
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Ashley and I drop it like itz HAAWWWTTT!!! and talk a lot and spend 15 bucks in wawa and scream when we see jen, teresa, and galloway and hang out with a boy that never speaks and then break my key board, fix it. then we get loved by one boy. then get hit on by multiple others. then then then. take pictures. then hang out with my brother. then me and dan decided to get married anywhere but here and canada.
DA DA! the end*
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| Feeling rather low about myself . . . </3 |
[31 Dec 2004|09:58pm] |
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To whom it may concern,
Tonight I feel lower about myself than I ever have in a long time. I feel so unwanted, unloved, and ugly it's unbelievable. I don't want to look in the mirrors, I don't want to go shopping for pants, I don't want to talk to anyone for some reason. I don't feel okay. I feel rejected. Am I that ugly or that bad of a person that I deserve to be treated terribly or beat myself up all the time? I have a terrible headache because I'm stressing myself out. For a little while I tried to think I was really as gorgeous as I was told to be. For a little while I would actually buy clothes that were my size. But now I realize I'm not gorgeous, those were just sweet nothings. I'm no longer buying clothes that fit me..but clothes that are too big for me. And I'm making myself think I'm that heavy or ugly. I'm making myself think that I'm not a good friend, daughter, or aunt. Am I going crazy? Does anyone else feel this way besides me? I'm sure that everyone does...but like this? It's getting a little too out of hand. I need someone to hold me. A shoulder to cry on. But not just anyone. Since freshmen year I've been under this spell. To the extent of really thinking I add up to nothing. That I'm nothing but a piece of ass. I find mysef flirting with people I don't even like sometimes just to hear the compliments that I don't even believe. I'm not making any sense at all right now and I'm sure that this sounds like one big bitch fest...but I had to get it out. Please do not think any less of me. My life story.
Did anyone even read that? Does anyone even read this?
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[31 Dec 2004|08:21pm] |
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I want to be with you -- it's the only way I can be complete -- it's the only way I won't beat myself up everyday for loving you.
So be my Valentine -- be my bird of a feather -- be my mid summer's dream.
Here's my heart please don't break it -- here's the truth don't bend twist and shake it.
I need your kisses -- I need your hugs -- I need you.
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[31 Dec 2004|06:48pm] |
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I miss you and your green eyes. How your shaggy brown hair ran through my fingers. Your tanned skin. Your soft lips. Playing soccer with you at random. You yelling at me for smoking. Your smile. Too bad you're so far away.
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| Last night...I cried my last fucking tears. |
[31 Dec 2004|01:15pm] |
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Last night was straight up bull shit. But hey, I can deal with that.
Today I'm going to the movies.
Tonight Ashley is sleeping over.
I wanna play with the nail dazzler that my mommy got me. But I have to get my acryilics taken off first. Gosh darned it.
Just wanted to share something with everyone. Because this guy said the sweetest things to me last night and made me cry .. but a good cry.
On Pause 101: moll ya know you're gorgeous, and you know you can smile and make a guy weak in the knees... And the important part's not those two things, but that you KNOW that you have the ability to do that, and it eminates from you, and makes you come off as this very small, sweet, and powerfully sexy girl... and it's amazing :-)
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[30 Dec 2004|11:36pm] |
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I fucked up my thumb somehow. Don't know when or how. But it's fucking killing me.
Tomorrow is my only day off and I am so effing busy. I don't even have time for myself. I have plans to do stuff with everyone that I haven't gotten to spend time with in a long time. I work on New Years Eve. Yeah. And New Years. Fucking kill me. Oh well. Nothing goes on New Year's Eve until night time anyways. I love night time.
Um. I went on a shopping rampage with Cori and (Courtney for a little bit). I got jeans, a robe, a hott shirt, and comfy sweat pants.
I love most of you. But some of you I hate. Comment and find out if I love you or hate you.
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[30 Dec 2004|10:20am] |
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I'm up this early because I have work 11:30 - 3:30. Damn it. I love most of the people working there but at the same time just a couple people fucking ruin it for me and make me want to quit. I just might. Don't know yet, though. Urgh. I got all excited because steven said that he had work..and now he might not...so that'll be another long while until I see him. I haven't seen him since the summer. That jerk.
I'm going shopping with Cori today. Very exciting. Umm....what the eff is going on for New Year's?! <123
I'm in such a good mood. I really really really am. Fuck work. It's not bringing me down today. I'm gonna be too busy smiling. Assholes. Wo0t!!!
**PS. I'm going to wet seal today....do I get more greens, blues, or pinks? Cause there's a very cute green shirt I'd like.
http://www.wetseal.com/shop/detail.asp?styleid=34162903&colorid=293&cat_id=8&sub_id=14
check it out. I love it. It will be mine. Pictures soon. <33
C0MM3NT S0M3 L<EV3 PLZ.
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[29 Dec 2004|11:57pm] |
WHAT DO HORSES EAT?
hay.
WHAT DO GAY HORSES EAT?
hhhhaayyyy!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHA.
Snoop Dogg: "yo. don't smoke da mistle toe. no matta how good it be. it's harsh shit."
S.L.U.T.S
SOUTHERN LADIES UP TA SUMPTHIN
i love the jay lenno show.
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[29 Dec 2004|09:47pm] |
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Okay everyone, here's the dillio. I'm going to dye my hair a light chesnut brown with gold highlights. I am going shopping this week at H&M, wet seal, forever 21, hot topic, delias, gadzooks, after thoughts, Bath and Body Works, ULTA, PAC SUN, any other ideas?
Anyone wanna go with me?
Boys make me upset. And it kind of makes me want to choke them with a boa and then put makeup on them while they're passed out and lay them in the middle of the road in a thong so when they open their eyes they are getting hit by an eighteen wheeler and they're found legally dead dressed as a drag queen.
Anyone wanna join me in that fun filled acitivity? It may sound violent but it'd be very effective.
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[29 Dec 2004|07:53pm] |
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Okay..for anyone that reads this: should I go friends only? Or stay public? Kinda debating it...just incase I decide to go friends only...comment if you wanna be added or stay added.
I really would like to go shopping at H & M. It's all that I hear people talk about. Where is it?
And last but not least...
Should I dye my hair? If I were to dye it I'd either..
A.) go back to natural blonde
B.) chesnut brown with gold highlights
c.) black
please comment! <33
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[29 Dec 2004|12:36am] |
It's snowing outside and it's beautiful.
I still want summer back, though.
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[28 Dec 2004|04:50pm] |
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I just realized a few certain people were really big assholes to me. And because I'm such a good hearted person, I forgave them. When they never should have been forgiven. I've decided to give them the grudge they had coming to them until they fucking apologize for being such fucking assholes that really deserve to FUCKING DIE. FUCK YOU FOR ALL THE FUCKING PAIN THAT YOU EVER FUCKING PUT ME THROUGH!!!
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[28 Dec 2004|03:54pm] |
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I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened before
I want to be back on the beach with you
Holding your hand and running away from you
Buying ice cream and singing on the docks
Those were the days that lead into the nights that I'll always remember.
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[28 Dec 2004|12:35am] |
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Drunk off your kisses I can't forget your lips
Loss of all reality I can still feel your hands holding my hips
I love to look at you and laugh with you anf talk with you
You love to look at me and kiss me and play with me
I hate it when you're sarcastic with me but it makes me want you more
You hate it when I stand my ground but it makes you need me more
When you kiss my cheek I know my cheeks blush
When you look in my eyes I know that words are not enough
No need for games, baby
You've got me entirely
And I've got you indefinitely.
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| Christmas Presents. <3 |
[27 Dec 2004|11:36pm] |
- gift certificates for best buy, wet seal, bath and body works, and a spa
- clothes
- makeup looking notepad and pen. Like...the notepad is inside a powder compact and the pen looks like a tube of lipstick.
- HIM dvd
- necklace
- boots
- clothes
- two very cute scarves
- cabbage patch doll who is named teresa evelyn.
- knee high striped socks
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| Hello my name is Molly and all I've done today is updated. |
[27 Dec 2004|12:26am] |
I had to share this with everyone. Because I love Lauren Chaika.
Lookie its Molly: MERRY CHRISTMAS LAUEN!!!!!!
xQuemadmodum: MERRY CHRISTMAS MOLLY!
xQuemadmodum: hows it going hun?
Lookie its Molly: im freezing. and i just got my period. but that mike kid gave me like, 3 presents so im pretty happy
Lookie its Molly: lol
Lookie its Molly: you?
xQuemadmodum: tehe, im alright. freezing.
xQuemadmodum: had a boring day, but i hung out with dave and eric so meow
Lookie its Molly: meeoow
xQuemadmodum: meowww
xQuemadmodum: i ish sleepy, but not
xQuemadmodum: lol
Lookie its Molly: lol
Lookie its Molly: me too
Lookie its Molly: I WANTISH MY PRESENTS.
xQuemadmodum: lol imj for some reason not all excited like usual
xQuemadmodum: im just like.. ok
xQuemadmodum: lol
Lookie its Molly: lol
Lookie its Molly: prolly cause you already got some cool stuff.
Lookie its Molly: or because we're 16/17 and have too much alcohol and pot and anger in our systems to care.
xQuemadmodum: lol i think its the being older thing
Lookie its Molly: lol
Lookie its Molly: christmas when we were kids was so bad ass.
xQuemadmodum: lmao i know
xQuemadmodum: it was like JOYYYY! PRESENTS! BROUGHT BY A FAT GUY~
xQuemadmodum: *!
Lookie its Molly: and then we came to the realization he didn't exist. that fat people CAN'T fit down chimnies. that reindeer don't fly. or that sleighs can remain airborn around the world in 24 hours.
xQuemadmodum: lmao yes!
Lookie its Molly: lolol
xQuemadmodum: and then the world seemed to just suck after that
xQuemadmodum: they ruined it for us!
Lookie its Molly: seriously!
Lookie its Molly: where's the "I GOT A KISS ON THE FOREHEAD FROM MY DADDY UNDER THE MISTLE TOE!" or the "AAHH IT'S 5 AM ON CHRISTMAS MORNING EVERYONE WAKE UUPP!!"
xQuemadmodum: lmao yeahhhh
Lookie its Molly: now we're all like
Lookie its Molly: CANDY IS DANDY BUT LIQUOR IS QUICKER SO I WANT SOMEA THAT GIGGLE WATER IN MY STOCKING. FUCK WALNUTS.
xQuemadmodum: lmao!
xQuemadmodum: yes!
Lookie its Molly: lol
Lookie its Molly: damn im cynical.
xQuemadmodum: lol, and SEXY!
Lookie its Molly: lauren. i would be INCOMPLETE without you. lol
xQuemadmodum: the <3
xQuemadmodum: *tehe
Lookie its Molly: hehehe
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